tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31622909626908951362024-03-12T16:03:14.327-07:00Truth As I Know ItSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.comBlogger50125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-49850423194451052432010-12-05T21:47:00.000-08:002010-12-05T21:48:01.478-08:00Wow.That's really all I have to say as I prepare to study for finals.Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-69842791892914245642009-09-02T18:18:00.000-07:002009-09-02T18:23:29.073-07:00Long time no seeYep. I'm posting.<br /><br />Well, I wasn't going to but something is bothering me. Everyone here on campus (well most of my friends) comments that they don't want to mentor a freshman that is religious. And then say they don't like religious people. I guess I have been misbehaving rather badly in the Christian department. I haven't been to church here in college town in a while. I don't like the churches I've been too as they weren't lively enough. I want a church where people aren't afraid to praise God when they feel like it. I want people to show <span style="font-style:italic;">emotion</span> when they sing. So I stopped. I'm not very active with the Christian organizations on campus either. I guess I need to get back in the game. It's worse off than I thought. Oh well, what is past is past. No way to change it. Guess I gotta work on the future now. Yep, lots to do in school and in self. <br /><br />ttyl<br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-48250532646440390062009-07-14T16:44:00.000-07:002009-07-14T16:50:46.394-07:00bras confuse meToday, I went bra shopping. I hate it especially since they are expensive but I need new ones. From a previous shopping excursion I found that I seem to be in between sizes, so I sought the Playtex Thank Goodness It Fits half sizes. Couldn't find them today or previously. So I opted to two sizes. I grabbed both A and B of the cheapest ones and took them to the dressing room. <br /><br />Both fit. I don't get it. I think something is wrong with that brand. Why can't there just be a standard cup size between brands? The band size stays the same, why can't the cup? Sigh...I'll have to try and look somewhere else for the half sizes or random bras that fit as well as possible. Hopefully, they will be cheap.<br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-68274469953286773352009-06-29T19:43:00.000-07:002009-06-29T20:05:32.935-07:00Body ImageYou know a lot of women have body image issues and I account myself as one of them. Some people would think me crazy because I'm a bean pole but I do. <br /><br />I've been thinking about this lately due to a <a href="http://javajones-mylife.blogspot.com/2009/06/it-sounds-truthy-to-me.html">blog post </a>by Mm. I was a simple statement but a hurtful one. She mentions much as a lot of people do that a friend of hers looks like a "real" woman. I, like a lot of thin women, hate these comments. Just because I happen to fit the stereotype of beautiful more than you does not make me an less "real" than you are. I'm tired of hearing people say "I'll give you some of mine." and "I wish I had your problem" when I mention not being able to do something do to my small size. I'm tired of being told I'm 12 (although I have been getting 15 recently. Marked improvement I'll say).<br /><br />But after sitting and thinking as well as reading other blogs, I came to realize that all the ads in the media are to blame. For both sides of hate talk. Admittedly overweight women have it a <em>lot</em> worse but I don't think it's fair to dismiss my complaints just because so stupid fashion designer decided that anorexic was a good look. It's not my total fault I'm thin. I also shouldn't blame all the overweight women picking up the slogan "real women have curves." I applaud the effort to help normal and overweight women feel better which is a good thing but that is hurtful to me. I often feel that I couldn't possibly be attractive enough since I can fit into a size 2-4 and wear an A-cup. But now is the time to end all this. At least for me. <br /><br />Recently, something just clicked in my head or changed in me...I'm feeling more of the second. I guess it was an epiphany of sorts. I just realized that the media doesn't decide what is beautiful. Nor do those who tell me "Wow, you're SO skinny." as though they feel sorry for me. I personally want to weigh more but now it's for health reasons. Who decides that I am beautiful as God made me is me. No one else. I personally would like to see an end to all this "real" women business. All women are real. Whether we happen to fall in the small percentage of underweight, the growing percentage (around 57% I think) of those classified as overweight, or some where in between, I think we should ignore the media and just support each other realizing that we all have beauty. <br /><br />I'd also like to say, sometimes I can not understand why some bigger women even want to lose weight. I can think of some people who look gorgeous fitting the label obese. And I personally think that if there are no health problems and they are happy they should be left alone. And vice versa, although, thin people don't face nearly as much ridicule as those on the other end of the spectrum. <br /><br />Ah, what it must be to not be told "you need to eat more" or "you need to eat less" and just be average. What would the world be like if we heard "you look good!" instead?<br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-55425348487534645142009-03-12T16:24:00.000-07:002009-03-12T16:36:14.708-07:00tired...sleepyOK to start, I signed that in my head. ASL penetrates into all aspects of my life. I randomly sign things while I'm thinking or talking to others. especially fingerspelling. I do it without realizing I'm doing it sometimes. I don't know I'm doing it until someone asks me what I was spelling. I wonder sometimes how often I fingerspell when I'm alone without knowing it. I should video tape myself and find out. not going to bother, waste of film.<br /><br />anyways, back to topic of the post even though I never started it in the first place. I am tired. I have been tired for a while.(mostly at the end of a day) It make me think I could be anemic. But then I think back to my sleeping habits and tell myself I'll go to bed early and see if I really am then never make it bed to early to test the theory. So, I'll try to get into bed tonight at a descent hour but then it's Friday so I don't know if that's going to happen. <br /><br />You know, I have an energy drink. But the interesting thing is I have no clue what it will do to me. Could make me sleepy could give me energy. Caffiene has an odd effect on me you see, opposite(2 servings of strong coffee or so) in fact. But the drink also has crap loads of sugar, which makes me hyper. What will happen? I really should experiment on myself. So now is not the time. I want to do it from a baseline of not hyper, not tired. just normal. Which again requires me to get sleep. sigh. sleep and college student don't agree in most situations. partly our fault, partly life. This all could be just a long day as my MWTh's are. <br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-32930110968486711452009-03-10T13:09:00.001-07:002009-03-10T13:43:24.855-07:00Am I a Geek?You know I talk about the oddness of my friends and me often. But I just realized that we really and truly DON'T have normal conversations. <br /><br />Examples:<br /><br />No. 1<br />Yesterday, Moon had an odd headache that was partly sinusitis, partly migraine. She inquired as to which med she should take: sinus med or Excedrin. So she began to describe what hurt. She started with the pressure in her face and pain in the eye then went into the pain in her upper occipital lobe and frontal lobe, parietal lobe, and along the sensory-motor cortex (she now gives me more info than she did last night). At first I just accepted the info and was about to give my suggestion when it hit me: most people don't discuss head pain in terms of lobes. Most say the side of my head hurts or the back of my head hurts. This is how communication normally takes place. But since the two of us like psychology our communication was a bit different. Can you tell me where her head was hurting? I doubt most could.<br /><br />No. 2<br />Today I had a conversation with Perv on Facebook. We were talking and being, well his name, he asked me if he could be my secant* line. I promptly said no, and I would not spoon with him. He was first confused then it dawned on him that I understood him perfectly. I guess he thought he could get away with a perv suggestion. Too bad for him that I really like calculus. We continued talking and then he once again asked a perv question: If I were your endoplasmic reticulum* how would you want me? Now this is a question he knew I would get considering we are both bio majors.<br /><br />Can you see how ridiculously geeky my friends and I are? But it is rather enjoyable when you can randomly go "I'm a scolex!" and people laugh and get you. <br /><br />beaming up,<br />self<br /><br />*secant line is a line that crosses a circle at two points. my reference to spooning was more preventative of him not trying to request being a tanget line<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMWwCoWnLdYaCyMhFcGKuQmIeDGJVPPwCDKVRwhTpFkR7lTSkGG8Yt6SddXBisVLGMH8ZL9gG80Ttfk7MiRKnY6fV_mBCwBazmEJ_FrzZ6UsHtNUWBye2Bqxp8ZezsYlxMyJr2CY30iL0a/s1600-h/secantLine.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 296px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMWwCoWnLdYaCyMhFcGKuQmIeDGJVPPwCDKVRwhTpFkR7lTSkGG8Yt6SddXBisVLGMH8ZL9gG80Ttfk7MiRKnY6fV_mBCwBazmEJ_FrzZ6UsHtNUWBye2Bqxp8ZezsYlxMyJr2CY30iL0a/s320/secantLine.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311660754561865810" /></a><br /><br /><br />*endoplasmic reticulum (ER) is a part of cells which can be smooth or rough<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZwpW-56xY1ChfwzAkif3sztX_bqhuk5stKvuDpwQqNsqhaOSQvz5gEDD6qtJHwimXTZLbh_mgW9IQ5jcxiBATxMRBJatTdwpSRhIi_UgFLmZ3SJuz_s7ZrHr_ta29snZrTmoRE4ItDwLJ/s1600-h/er.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 257px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZwpW-56xY1ChfwzAkif3sztX_bqhuk5stKvuDpwQqNsqhaOSQvz5gEDD6qtJHwimXTZLbh_mgW9IQ5jcxiBATxMRBJatTdwpSRhIi_UgFLmZ3SJuz_s7ZrHr_ta29snZrTmoRE4ItDwLJ/s320/er.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311661899621140530" /></a>Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-66933898778453424552009-03-09T19:01:00.000-07:002009-03-09T19:12:00.873-07:00My finger...hurts. Don't really know why I started it this way but I did. Guess because I wanted to. Who knows?<br /><br />Anywho, I'm thinking of buying a college ring online and am toying with the idea of asking to join the ring ceremony. But then I don't know if I want to go through all the trouble of the tradition. Asking faculty to be my sponsor. Talking with my parents about something. Finding stuff to wear. But I think it would be a nice memory. I guess I should talk with our class pres to find out if I can join then decide if I want to. <br /><br />I also need to pick a gift for my mum. And decide which weekend I want to visit her. I also need to pick a girt for my big's graduation and her b-day too. Sigh, were on earth does money come from and why can't I locate this source? <br /><br />Ring, possible summer course, 3 gifts, littles...I wish money grew underneath my bed where I could pick it out at will. Would be nice. Maybe only $300 a month. I don't care any little bit would help. I'd gladly accept a dollar. Be very surprised but happy. <br /><br />Oh big = my mentor, little = my mentor-ee (what is the word for the reciprocal?)<br /><br />self<br /><br />i feel rather out of it right now...Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-77743723577194910392009-02-27T20:44:00.000-08:002009-02-27T20:56:46.190-08:00Jonas!!!Yes, I like the Jonas Brothers.<br /><br />They are amazing! I just got back from going to see the 3D movie (yeah opening night!! haha! :)) I loved it! Aside from the middle schoolers screaming at everything, it was great. 3D is really cool. I think I'd like to go see the movie again. I'm really glad I and all those I went with got tickets on Fandango ahead of time. Apparently I countibuted to massive sales. Hm. Good for JB. I personally would like one of Nick and Kevin's guitars. Hm...Kevin giving it to me in person...hehe. It was really fun to go out with friends to see a group you all like even if it was just a 3D version of their concert. <br /><br />Moon and Taiyou probably don't care anything about Jonas. Or how good Joe looks shirtless. Maybe a bit about the latter but that's onlly female interest and only then if they like muscle.<br /><br />I need sleep, I've already stayed up to late. At roughly 11:00, I look out the window and saw the parking lot. I mistook it for water. I knew the water was the ocean, yet I still accepted the cars sitting on/in it. That was 50 minutes ago. To bed I go. <br /><br />Oh, if you ever go to TGI Fridays try the Cajun Shrimp and Chicken pasta. It's really good. And our waiter was friendly. I wish another one of our friends could have been there but she had the "plague" that was going around. "plague" is one of many things: flu, bronchitus, or some unknown thing that could be a variant of flu. We aren't sure. But either way this campus is infected. My mum even got it from being here only a few hours.<br /><br />going to bed now almost an hour after I said I should/would.<br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-9954005622333307182009-02-21T18:53:00.000-08:002009-02-21T19:02:28.250-08:00bleh...That's an odd title for me. It's more like one for Moon.<br /><br />Anywho, the point of the post: Why is it that I feel bad when I make my roomie feel bad when I didn't mean to in the first place? I wish that wasn't so, but Moon is a mch more sensitive person than I am (at least with many things) so when I say things, possibly jokingly, she gets upset. Sometimes it confuses me. She gets teary eyed and sad looking. Then it makes me sads and sightly panicky because I don't want her to cry. I don't like it when Moon cries. I often don't understand whe she's crying, or about to, in the first place. I should make more effort to understand where my roomie is coming from. It's a very different thought world from my own. I guess our thought world collide in many areas but are <em>really</em> foreign in others. You know this could possibly be a racial thing. Idk. But possibly. Could just be personal difference. Who knows?<br /><br />Hey maybe I could do a psych experiment on racial differences in what makes people cry. <br /><br />I am a science major.<br /><br />self<br /><br />ps. Love you Moon! (help me understand your tears!)Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-53283521008387185132009-02-13T21:37:00.000-08:002009-02-13T21:38:06.606-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEge7JcCqKrQP_VXL7IgT4YkWDV1B6hnuj8FufTlMgc3zN1heYAlrO4XGsll6PmhYUyVh4Gxoacd2Z2YS79bLWSpi0L4ehbBJ3-qsLXNkYxE0pr2TqUnUUR26GXKXJPtNnWPKqBO0oJWPCYB/s1600-h/MyHeroWhip.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 238px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEge7JcCqKrQP_VXL7IgT4YkWDV1B6hnuj8FufTlMgc3zN1heYAlrO4XGsll6PmhYUyVh4Gxoacd2Z2YS79bLWSpi0L4ehbBJ3-qsLXNkYxE0pr2TqUnUUR26GXKXJPtNnWPKqBO0oJWPCYB/s320/MyHeroWhip.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5302523033012742722" /></a><br /><br />Here's the same hero with the whip. due to it's retarded name I have to side with Moon in this one.<br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-40143698810079475062009-02-13T21:24:00.000-08:002009-02-13T21:31:43.320-08:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZG0ha0X5Cy6Kp-WnUkoECUJFEcQ_rRKiZxajyo9w1412GeDXXWyf59ZYFRhryVHuvoo4eoH5Iu63Djou0As5gipXv2YjeMydVvEAdnmTfFeDNufUSvFgnt7kup2SJRAt9Hf-uNa5E9HNJ/s1600-h/MyHero%5B2%5D.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 238px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZG0ha0X5Cy6Kp-WnUkoECUJFEcQ_rRKiZxajyo9w1412GeDXXWyf59ZYFRhryVHuvoo4eoH5Iu63Djou0As5gipXv2YjeMydVvEAdnmTfFeDNufUSvFgnt7kup2SJRAt9Hf-uNa5E9HNJ/s320/MyHero%5B2%5D.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5302520849074916050" /></a><br /><br /><br />Moon discouraged me from getting the laser whip. The art major fused at the science major to prevent her from bending light in a way that it doesn't bend. I say that's it's futuristic or maybe even an alternate theory of light. I'm willing to let it go. And have fun. It also could have something to do with me wanting a light whip or just a whip...hm. what would i do with it besides hurt myself playing around with it? <br /><br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-81148928335497833362009-01-25T15:39:00.000-08:002009-01-25T15:51:06.259-08:00A New LoveActually two.<br /><br />I like music. Lots of it. Most actually. However, Moon can attest to how I dislike (at times greatly dislike) certain folk groups. They make catchy songs but I really get tired of their voices quickly. I could never listen to Kingston Trio for more than like 3 songs without wanting to stab whoever is tormenting me.<br /><br />Anywho, a good friend has gotten me intersted in the Jonas Brothers. In actuality, it was more another friend who has huge posters all over her side of the dorm room covered in their faces. I began to wonder what was so great about them. I'd never bothered listening to them. Until now. I like them. I also like looking at them. That's always a plus. (Joe is particularily hot when he wants to be. Nick is really cute but 16 :P and Kevin looks amazing in his vintage clothes and sideburns.) ***Tangent***<br />I normally hate thick sideburns but Kevin makes them look really good. At least to me. I never thought I'd like the whole Elvis 'burns...oh well. Things change. <br /><br />The other love is T.M. Revolution. I liked him previously but this same friend (not the Jonas otaku* but the other one) recently rediscovered him and helped me to do the same. He is amazing including when he appears to and is cross-dressing. <br /><br />I need to find a downloading site for Japanese music...<br /><br />self<br /><br />*otaku is used here in more the Japanese sense without the negativity. So more of a mix of American "being-an-otaku-isn't-bad" and the Japanese "that-person-is-an-obsessed-idiot."Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-56864580715204369512009-01-06T16:04:00.000-08:002009-01-06T16:15:18.748-08:00Fun DefintionI just wrote this nice post about this definition I came across in Mm's blog and it just got erased. Wonderful. I now feel no need to re-write my thoughts. It rather upsets me to re-write things as i can never have it the same way as I did the first time when it's fresh and new. Hopefully this will publish despite the huge red ERROR going across my screen right now.<br /><br />Self<br /><br />ps. the word was coitalSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-35735980878262808302008-12-23T12:48:00.000-08:002008-12-23T13:00:01.490-08:00Kitties, WoW, and Organic ChemistryToday, I have managed to get internet at a friend's house as we work on our research project for this summer. We are writing our grant proposal and hoping to get funded. It envolved making a computer program that will show chemical reactions. I won't go into details but I really would like to. I am a sincere science dork/nerd/geek (whichever). But so is my research partner so we're good. <br /><br />While here at MK's house (my friend) I got to see her kitties and I'm excited because the female one (Kitty) is pregnant. She is adorable and tiny with a bulging belly. She's only 9 months old and almost ready to give birth. The other kitty (a male - KK) is jealous of the attention she's getting. He also got mad at me earlier when I didn't let him in the bathroom while I peed. Apparently, in the wild, the Beta-cat( in this case KK) goes with the alpha-cat (me) and guards him while he's doing his business. Had I known I would have let him do his guarding but I didn't so he just sat outside the bathroom and waited for me. Angrily. You could see it in his face. Oh well, nothing to be done about it. He's now happily tucked away in a new box that MK set up for Kitty to give birth in. So much for that idea.<br /><br />Now that I have written a suffiecent amout regarding my trip, i will go to happily play WoW and level my character.<br /><br />Self<br /><br />I've been waiting to level for some time. I'm happy this trip inables me to multitask!Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-23418777159235580192008-12-11T11:37:00.000-08:002008-12-11T11:51:35.541-08:00Nipples and Christmas BreakApparently, to Moon my exclamation of "New Post!" was really "Nipples!" Wow, she just waved her bra in my face in response to me blowing a raspberry at her. Odd. But then again she's Moon. <br /><br />I have now finished all of my exams! I had 4, one each day and an essay due today. I'm happy I studies (not as well as I should have) but I think I did okay. At least I got a 96 on my formal lab report! And I just found out the most wonderful news every about Organic chem. Dr. S is going to count the lowest test grade as half as much as the others! Woo! that will help everyone's grade. <br /><br />Organic bleh! you'd think a biologist would like organic anything, but alas, it is not so. To demonstrate this point several bio majors are dropping their BS degrees to BA degrees so they don't have to take the second half of the course. Lucky them. I can't do that. I'm pre-med, both required. Sigh...<br /><br />Sadly, my toe began hurting again today. I don't think I mentioned it any previous post but I suffered a toe injury during a play here on campus. It swelled and hurt for about 2 or 3 weeks and then stopped. But now, a month later, it's starting again. Maybe I should go to the doctor if it continues. Although nothing should be wrong. It wasn't broken, just swollen. Sigh...why does like have to include hurting toes? At least it's not something more serious.<br /><br />yay! home in a few hours!<br /><br />Self<br /><br />I'm very glad I get to see Mm's new kitty soon. ^_^Selfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-52762809908440294782008-12-06T14:33:00.000-08:002008-12-11T11:50:31.145-08:00Yay! New pointer!I am terribly excited about something that has always bothered me: the mouse pointer. It made no sense to me at first why that stupid arrow was always pointing to the left. I just couldn't figure it out. Why was it going the wrong way? They it dawned on me: It's right for right-handers.<br /><br />It always agitated me that it looked so wrong. But now my pointer has a pointing right orientation and the little pointing finger that comes up when you roll over links is a left hand. My laptop is now even more perfect for lefties! I love it. <br /><br />Now if I could only do something about the mousepad and keyboard...<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-31737483859083219292008-11-25T05:25:00.000-08:002008-11-25T05:34:53.909-08:00Thanksgiving breakI am upset right now. I told Taiyou I would take her to the airport over a month ago and now my parental unit is forcing me out of it. Because it's better for him. What about Taiyou? He told me to tell to take a taxi. To take a taxi to a place 30 minutes away. That is crazy expensive especially when I could take her and get home around the same amount of time. 1hour 30 minutes no matter what I do, so I figured I'd help a friend with 30 of them. <br /><br />I don't understand why he's this way but then I do. I understand he worries but I don't understand what these severe worries are founded upon. I <em>have </em>to learn to travel. It's not like he didn't provide me with 50 thousand different maps, all current, of the places closest to me to which I could end up going. <br /><br />This is really frustrating. I hate to do this to Taiyou but I have no choice. I wish I had mentioned it earlier so that if (indeed when) he did this Taiyou would have had mor notice than the day of. <br /><br />I really hate this. I can't believe I'm backing out on my word. I didn't even want to wait until 4 to leave but because I had already told her I would take I relented and decide to wait for her to get out of class. <br /><br />I hope she doesn't get mad at me. But then again, it's really not my fault. I made plans to include her, it's just that they got shot down. I hope all goes well for Taiyou. I wish he knew her better. Maybe that would help. Or if she lived somewhere between here and home. <br /><br />Sigh, alas, I have to do what I do not wish. The damage is done. For the sake of well-being I do not understand.<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-27505327558690415782008-11-19T06:51:00.000-08:002008-11-19T17:55:53.205-08:00Rat babiesI work it the rat lab here at school. It's my work study location as one of my bosses is the one who does all the rat stuff. <br /><br />I walked in today, just a few minutes ago and decided to check up on the rats and see if their room was warm enough as it is very cold today. I walked in and didn't see the heater but decided to check out the really cute and now fuzzy rat babies (did you know that they are called kittens, too?) I look in the large cage and see the mum and then I noticed something red. It was half a baby. I continue looking around the cage and I see other babies. One looks like it had it's neck bitten. Another half was lying next to the mum and about 2 or 3 very still ones were just lying there. I couldn't help but stare at first. I'm shaking as I type this. I named one them. I watched them grow, open their eyes, and get fur. I petted them and loved them while I could. I knew they would be used in an experiment later on this school year but I didn't want them to die like this. At least in the experiment they would have died in a less gruesome way than being ripped in half. <br /><br />Out of all of this I hope that the mum isn't the one who did this. But I really hope that the other babies are safe some place else. It was 15, then 2 died, now it appears that maybe 5 more were killed. Isn't this the reason you take the male out of the cage after they are born? Sigh...I wish this wouldn't happen when you get attached to little ones. I just hope the others are okay, for the experiment and for my heart's sake. <br /><br />Funny thing is, I never really pegged myself as caring a lot for animals. I guess working with them and wanting to take care of them does that to you.<br /><br />Why do things have to die? Especially this way. Death can deal with (I'm sure those who know me know that), but murder by evisceration is another thing entirely.<br /><br />::UPDATE::<br />Okay, so the babies were all eaten by the mum. Dr. S will have to wait to continue with her experiment. Basically everyone was upset by this. All those who knew the rat babies anyways. Dr. K (the person I work for) was very upset when Dr. M (the other person I work for)called him to ask him if he knew about the babies. Lucky me. First person to see them. At least everyone else had warning. <br /><br />I think I accidentally worried some people. One of my friends heard about it and asked me if I was okay. Al truth be told, I don't know. I think so but then there are moments when I don't think so. I'm kind of dreading going to work tomorrow but looking forward to it as well. (I would like to know what will be done as far as the experiment and about the mum). And earlier in the evening when I got back from SCSDB, I went in to the science building and saw a white napkin on the stairs and freaked out. I thought it was a dead rat and was horrified at finding another. <br /><br />At least now I don't have such a vivid picture of the babies. I keep thinking about them and how cute they were and how happy they made me. But I will continue to think of them. I know that people think that isn't the best when you see something that makes you sad but I'll try (and am trying) to think of the happiness they brought me and all the other people that interacted with them.<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-78554765840824259452008-11-15T16:52:00.000-08:002008-11-15T17:09:26.901-08:00Odd Dream...I thinkOkay Moon is very weird in my dream/awaking state. But I'm sure you knew that from previous posts.<br /><br />Okay, this morning I woke up around 7. I laid for a bit and then rolled over and looked in Taiyou's bed next to me. As I gazed, I noticed that Moon was also in Taiyou's bed. At seeing this I immediately freak out and roll back over. All I could think was "But Taiyou's straight!" and things along the line of "Why didn't I wake up?" I then decided to make sure that Moon was actually in her bed, so I rolled back over and indeed she was. Still freaked out, I turned toward the wall again. Frustrated at the ridiculousness of the situation, I checked the bed again. Moon was missing! Excited I look down (Taiyou and I have loft beds which Moon sleeps under on her futon) and notice she's now in her bed. Now that everything is normal, I get up and go to the bathroom. I come back get into bed and try to go back to sleep. I then roll over and see Moon in bed with me. So, I tell her "get out of my bed." <br />she replied, "in a minute." <br />"whatever." and roll back over. <br />I then waited and looked back to see if she had moved and indeed she was back in her bed.<br />Amazingly, all of her movements were completely silent. This makes be believe that I was really asleep except for when I went to the bathroom.<br /><br />Something funny though. Moon said that she remembered saying "in a minute" in one of her dreams.<br />odd but whatever.<br /><br />I hope that I just have weird dreams. And not a promiscuous roommate.<br />selfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-16690969186696864972008-11-02T17:44:00.001-08:002008-11-02T17:44:51.213-08:00more lolcatz<a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com/2008/10/17/funny-pictures-feelz-so-insignificant/"><img class="mine_1965400" title="funny-pictures-tiny-kitten-feels-insignificant-in-the-huge-kitchen" src="http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2008/10/funny-pictures-tiny-kitten-feels-insignificant-in-the-huge-kitchen.jpg" alt="cat" /></a><br />more <a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com">animals</a><br /><br />soooo adorable!<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-24729268522014872702008-11-02T17:26:00.001-08:002008-11-02T17:43:31.780-08:00lol catz<a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com/2008/11/02/fashion-sense-cat-springs-into-action/"><img class="mine_702589" title="funny-pictures-fashion-sense-cat-springs-into-action" src="http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2008/10/funny-pictures-fashion-sense-cat-springs-into-action.jpg" alt="funny pictures of cats with captions" /></a><br />more <a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com">animals</a><br /><br />I love this kitty!<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-80537210344581065572008-11-02T16:57:00.000-08:002008-11-02T16:58:12.855-08:00funny vid<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/kK9_DPYlve4&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/kK9_DPYlve4&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />i love high news reporters. don't you?<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-88337986381337800912008-11-02T14:09:00.000-08:002008-11-02T14:10:19.568-08:00Cool Drinks<a href="http://engrishfunny.com/2008/11/02/engrish-like-to-drink/"><img title="anything" src="http://engrishfunny.wordpress.com/files/2008/10/anything.jpg" alt="engrish, drink, store, anything, whatever, brunei" /></a><br />more the <a href="http://engrishfunny.com">engrish</a>!<br /><br />I wish I could have some of these!<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-88170453646380242702008-10-20T18:03:00.001-07:002008-10-20T18:03:31.760-07:00Fun Quiz<p><em>Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test...</em></p><h4>Modern, Cool Nerd</h4><p>61 % Nerd, 78% Geek, 48% Dork</p><p style="text-align:center"><img src="http://is2.okcupid.com/users/104/656/10465692962375378952/mt1124997258.jpg" width="" height="" /></p><br /> <div>For The Record:<br /><br /><br /><br />A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.<br /><br />A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.<br /><br />A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.<br /><br /><br /><br />You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, <b>Cool Nerd</b>.<br /><br /><br /><br />Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)!<br /><br /><br /><br />Congratulations!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=17325897279428986557">Buffy the Vampire Slayer</a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=16508533975919017840">Professional Wrestling</a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=8115472531704248346">Love & Sexuality</a><br /><br /><br /> <br /><br /><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=10603689462944369577">America/Politics</a><br /><br /><br /> <br /><br />Thanks Again! -- <a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=9935030990046738815">THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST</a></div><p><a href="http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/the-nerd-geek-or-dork-test">Take The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test</a> at <a href="http://www.helloquizzy.com/"><b style="color:#131313"><span style="color:#ac000c">H</span>ello<span style="color:#ac000c">Q</span>uizzy</b></a></p><br /><br />Hm, who'd a' thunk it?<br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3162290962690895136.post-9029624620897751442008-10-20T17:37:00.000-07:002008-10-20T17:39:28.233-07:00Wow,...amazing quizFor a two question quiz this one really worked out fairly well. It's off slightly on some points but mostly true.<br /><br /><p><em>Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...</em></p><h4>You Are a Grace!</h4><p><img src="http://vintagegriffin.com/images/uploads/mm.grace_.jpg" alt="mm.grace_.jpg" /><br /><br /></p><br /> <div><p><span style="font-size:small;"><span style="font-size:medium;"><strong>You are a Grace -- "I need to understand the world."</strong><br /></span></span></p><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br />Graces have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.<br /><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br /><strong>How to Get Along with Me</strong> <br /><ul><br /><li>* Be independent, not clingy</li><br /><li>* Speak in a straightforward and brief manner</li><br /><li>* I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts</li><br /><li>* Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable</li><br /><li>* Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity</li><br /><li>* If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place</li><br /><li>* don't come on like a bulldozer</li><br /><li>* Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy</li><br /></ul><br /><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br /><strong>What I Like About Being a Grace</strong><br />* standing back and viewing life objectively<br />* coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects<br />* my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure<br />* not being caught up in material possessions and status<br />* being calm in a crisis<br /><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br /><strong>What's Hard About Being a Grace</strong> <br /><ul><br /><li>* being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world</li><br /><li>* feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all</li><br /><li>* being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be</li><br /><li>* watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally</li><br /></ul><br /><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br /><strong>Graces as Children Often</strong> <br /><ul><br /><li>* spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on</li><br /><li>* have a few special friends rather than many</li><br /><li>* are very bright and curious and do well in school</li><br /><li>* have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers</li><br /><li>* watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information</li><br /><li>* assume a poker face in order not to look afraid</li><br /><li>* are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict</li><br /><li>* feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected</li><br /></ul><br /><p> </p><br /><p> </p><br /><strong>Graces as Parents</strong> <br /><ul><br /><li>* are often kind, perceptive, and devoted</li><br /><li>* are sometimes authoritarian and demanding</li><br /><li>* may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate</li><br /><li>* may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions</li><br /></ul><br /><br /><p><span style="font-size:small;"></span></p></div><p><a href="http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/are-you-a-jackie-or-a-marilyn-or-someone-else-mad-menera-female-icon-quiz">Take Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz</a> at <a href="http://www.helloquizzy.com/"><b style="color:#131313"><span style="color:#ac000c">H</span>ello<span style="color:#ac000c">Q</span>uizzy</b></a></p><br /><br />This makes me wonder about myself and how other percieve me versus how I do. Hmm, maybe I should ask.<br /><br />SelfSelfhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17631099553465038311noreply@blogger.com1